I Keep on Falling

You know, when you're a kid, falling is a normal thing. You run, you fall. You jump, you fall. You walk, you fall. You sleep, you fall (out of bed). The older you get though, the less you want to fall. The body just can't tolerate the "falling" like it did when you were a kid.

Little kids for instance, they would just fall on purpose! They'd run full speed ahead and BAM on the ground they'd go. They'd stand up laugh and off running again.

My friend once fell in front of me. It wasn't as graceful and playful as the little kids I see. He was walking down some steps. It was brutal, his legs go flying out from under him, his arms go stiff and when he finally hits the ground a noise like I have never heard came busting out of his mouth and he slides. He slides a good two metres. He laid there for twenty seconds or more. I thought he was dead. See if he was a kid he'd spring back up and off he'd go. This time nothing, not even blinking an eye.

When you see someone fall you hope they are not hurt, and then again you hope you can keep from laughing. Well at least I do. I seen a lady at the ball field fall once. She was walking to the bathroom hit a Pepsi machine with her shoulder and she went down like a Tyson had just thrown a punch to her face. WTF? I was like "are you OK?" she stood up dusted herself off, laughed and continued walking. No one is free from the spills of life.

Where do we take our cues from?

When it comes to our opinions about things, a friend was adamant — our opinions come from the media.

I didn't disagree with him that opinions come from somewhere — when it comes to notions of fairness, or what is acceptable or desirable in politics, I thought many people cease thinking about these things after high school.I thought about all this today.

How about our opinions about moral matters? Do we take these cues from people we admire?

This raises a question: how can we be sure we are admiring the rights things? Do we admire the right things?

Distances

Why in the earth that when we're mad we tend to shout on the top of our lungs?

I came up with some possible answers at first. I thought we shout because we lose our patience. But why shouting, I mean this person we're mad at is just nearby sometimes. Can't we just tell her/him without rising our voice? I was stuck, as there was no answers that were good enough to explain it.

Until I came across this thought in a book: when two persons are in anger, the distance between their hearts is becoming further even though they may be physically close. Therefore to cope with that distance they have to shout. But the weird part is the louder they shout, the further the distance is becoming. Thus, they have to shout even louder and louder more.

And this is even more interesting thought. In the contrary, what happened when two persons are falling in love? Not only that they do not shout, but even when they talk they speak with soft and peaceful voice. And no matter how low the voice is, both can hear it very clear. Why?
It's because when their hearts are close to each other, there is simply no more distances. No words needed anymore. A glance right through the eyes will say it the best what they wanted to say.

Meditating

When things go wrong in our life and we encounter difficult situations, we tend to regard the situation itself as the problem, but in reality whatever problem we experience come from the mind.

If we were to respond to difficulties with a positive and peaceful state of mind they wouldn't be problems for us; indeed we may even come to regard then as challenges or opportunities for growth and development. Problems arise only if we respond to a situation with a negative state of mind.

Therefore, if we want to transform our life and be free of problems we must learn to transform our mind. Suffering, problems, worries, unhappiness, and pain all exist within our mind; they are all unpleasant feelings, which are part of the mind.

Through controlling and purifying our mind we can stop them once and for all.

Im Here but Not Really Here

I've come to realize how differently I feel things as compared to 99% of the world. Or, rather 99% of my little piece of world...
I have very few people that I love. But, those people are fully and completely without hesitation. I try to do what ever I can to make those people happy. And, probably since I am so fiercely dedicated to those people I’ve chosen to love, I also find that I feel taken for granted a lot more than I should.
There are probably other reasons for that I need you to make me feel as special as I make you feel. And I wait, and wait, and wait, and feel smaller, and less important, and more and more invisible. And anytime that happens, with anyone that I love, I feel bits of my inside being chipped away. I'm disappearing; I’m becoming less of me. And it hurts me, unbearably.
I know it's horrible and needy and pathetic, but that's what I’m feeling inside me.
And most of the times I say something, and some other times I say nothing; I just sit back and take it all. Because I can't walk away from the people I love. Whether they can see me all the time, or not.
But if they even tried to hurt me again I would shut them up and I won't even talk to those kind of people who enjoy hurting people and just laugh about it ,'cause I’m totally fed up .If I don't want to take this shit again then I just WON'T.
That was releasing, I feel much better now though still I’m irritated in the inside. However, it's been a beautiful day and I won't let anyone ruin it on me.

A Poem-ish Thought

To be a friend and a lover is the last thing that I was expecting from you. After all my heart had put me through, I knew that it was in safe with you. What we had would never end. I thought that my poor heart would never mend, but from the days that we met you made me forget all my fears, you knew just what to say and you kissed away all my tears. I knew this time I had finally found someone that I can depend on. I’m feeling so lucky because you’re always next to me.

Wisdoms of Life..??

Believe in your heart that something wonderful is about to happen.
Love your life.
Believe in your own powers, and your own potential, and in your own innate goodness.
Wake every morning with the awe of just being alive.
Discover each day the magnificent, awesome beauty in the world.
Explore and embrace life in yourself and in everyone you see each day.
Reach within to find your own specialness.
Amaze yourself and rouse those around you to the potential of each new day.
Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect; this is the essence of your humanity.
Let those who love you help you.
Trust enough to be able to take.
Look with hope to the horizon of today, for today is all we truly have.
Live this day well.
Let a little sun out as well as in.
Create your own rainbows.
Be open to all your possibilities; all possibilities and Miracles.
Always believe in Miracles.

I Love You

I always thought I was doing fine,
spreading myself around another good time.
Then it hit me from out of the blue,
I was falling in love with you.
But now everything's been changed,
my hopes, my dreams are rearranged,
and it's all because of you.
Every night I wonder if you know,
that no matter what they say I won't let go!
Don't ask yourself if I'll always be there
because no matter how long I'll always care.
As time goes by and the feeling gets stronger,
to be in your arms I can't wait any longer.
Look in my eyes and you'll see it's true,
day and night all my thoughts are with you.

Love or Something Like it

Have you ever felt like your heart was going to melt when you see a certain person?

This isn't just anybody not to you anyways!

You know that it's not a phase; you know you shouldn't feel this way.

But you do everyday!You think about them every second of every minute, you can't help it!

Every time you pass them by, you feel like you are about to die.

Your heart beats so fast. You wish this could last.

But only in your dreams does it seem like this is real, this is the only way it can be for real!

But you know something??

Baby I’m feeling this way every time I see you

Being Two Faced

Ok, so here's a scary thought.

People who are two-faced and good at it!

Recently in my life, I am realizing and coming to know more and more people like this. Of course these people are of my age and generation. I have seen these individuals interacting with others and they amaze me!

They can be so dishonest, so tricky, and yet they make it look like they are your friends. It’s funny how people can not show their true selves. Hiding behind a fake face, one that changes so quickly whenever they are interacting with someone else.

A Storm In My Head

I often dislike solitude. Sometimes I just hate being alone. I am not sure why. Probably because it is when my mind travels through many thoughts, it travels through both, good and bad. I don’t like it many times.

Yet, at the same time, I long for solitude. I am not afraid of it. When life gets hectic, and I’m standing there with a million thoughts running through my mind. I just want to be alone, to sort things out.

I don’t know how to solve this puzzle. I know I must find my own answers to this, alone or with the help of others; But who?

I don't think I’ll be able to go into further detail about that. There’s too much to explain. It’s not as bad as it may seem. It may even be good, if not now, later. It is just the way it is.

Blogging!

A brand new day, a brand new blog. I've been aware of this blogging stuff for a while, but never got involved. What would I write about? What if nobody cared? What if I offended someone? And so on. Anyway, in the expectation that nobody will read this stuff, here we go. I'm going to write about me (obviously the most important thing in the world!), my family (that's second!), my friends, life in general and anything else I can think of. I probably need to put a disclaimer on the site that says something like
'This is a work of fiction and any reference to any person living or dead is nuffink to do wiv anybody awright?'.